Task-list Addiction?

Haallllp I am definitely addicted to my task list. Anytime I try to spend extended time on leisure, it feels painfully wasted, it almost feels like the time I had a panic attack, but different. I mean, for one, it isn't crippling. Second, I can't say I don't enjoy it, I am really enjoying getting the work done that I am, the desire to get stuff done keeps waking me up early. In fact, it is often after only 4 hours of sleep!!!

This experience is new, scary and incredibly fun. So far my only regret is that I had never discovered this sooner. I wish I would have let loose and started working toward all those, impracticable, impossible, or unrealistic things I was always told was not as important as satisfying the requirements of arbitrary teachers. "Focus on the back up!",always seem to be the message and you know what, screw that message it sucks. I have no back up. It is either solve the problems to get where I want to be or die never having reached it.  It feels foreign as if I am just now meeting myself for the first time.

I am going back and forth between a number of videos I am working on, that will be staggered out in release.  For example, I have finished all the pre-writing for a video promoting the C.H.E.W.S. vision, and I have started the writing on my next anime review, which is looking like it should be better than the first. Despite working on a number of long and short term projects, I can already see how I plan to tie them together. The fact i am getting even just a little closer is absolutely wonderful. I have too many ideas I want to share, and too many changes I want to see to slow down and I would not change a thing!  

Personal update: Anime Review 2 and Let's plays

Now that I have received feedback through various websites on my first episode of ChAnime, I am in the process of selecting which anime to review for the next episode, and so the process begins! The wait for this episode will be much shorter than the previous one, that was bogged down by a move and general chaos.

Beyond that I am planning a separate lets play channel for which I have acquired a partner who's personality I think a lot of you will enjoy.  He will be payed for his time, and is someone I know very well. All that is left is to figure out price and time, something I will not, for obvious reasons, share here. Life is going well and projects are coming along fantastically, and I am excited to bring you all along for the ride of building a world class company.

Personal Update: ChAnime and My Race for Progress

I released the first episode of a new faith based anime review show titled ChAnime. This was a fun learning experiences, one in which I faced a lot of frustrations. The process of trying to put it together into something I felt was presentable got infuriating at times. I even went over things so many times I started to think I hated everything about it.

After making an outline that I finally felt worked, I made some references slides, spoke to them, revised them repeatedly, and finally found what works for me. The outline was helpful, yet barely resembled the final output.  I missed a number of deadlines, worked a week straight, and now I am addicted. This was incredibly fun and hope to put this much effort into everything I do.

I am not yet happy with my ability to deliver the level of quality I wish to reach, be it in my speech delivery to an imaginary audience, or the final video output. Regardless I am happy both for the new work ethic, and the progress this video represents.  Chanime S01-E01

Beyond all this I am in Texas learning new skills and perusing new opportunities. Most important I am in a friendly race with my cousin toward progress. The first check point will be to beat him to a million dollars a year, not for materialistic reasons, but rather as way to support myself to implement the changes that I wish to see in the world. (Note that his goal is $100,000 to start and I hope to be first to that as well.)

I am not saying the money is not nice, or that I won't enjoy it. Just that it is not the goal in and of itself. When it comes to a choice between morals and short term profits, my morals will always win. I am still working on my book, it is coming along fantastically by the way, and I have actually thrown out the vast majority of the first draft in order to rewrite it. This is not to say the first copy was not valuable, because it was. From it I learned what was working and what was not. I love life and am finally moving forward, so if you want to support this consider watching and sharing my anime review ChAnime S01-E01