It's Happening (Well life is anyway)

Hello everyone, I know I do not always post as often as some of you would like and for that I am sorry.  Unless ofc you don't like hearing from me, in which case why are you here? ;P  Since I have been busy this will be yet another short post. I have switched to a better job recently and my current script for the next episode of ChAnime (My anime review show) is coming along great. Viewer feedback has been taken into account as well as some of my own Criticisms. No specific timeline on the video yet except that it will be soon.

Life's been great, I had a birthday and my time management has been a lot better. Other than that, my projects are finally organized, and I still talk about mundane points in my life as if they are interesting. I am currently looking into more ways to improve workflow and tools to improve final production values. This whole starting a business thing is hard work, of course only idiots and politicians would call it easy ;).

ChAnime s01e03 Done

I spent a lot of time and hard work on this, mostly rethinking some details and getting it the production done right. This episode I believe show that effort, and it only gets better from here :D

ChAnime Reworking, website and ?

So I did not feel like my format for Ch-anime was completely working for me. I simply did not find it entertaining. After a temporary hiatus, I have decided on a slightly new direction that I feel more properly fits with my personality. I am hoping this will result in a better experience for everyone. Heck if I do it right, it may become something people with no real interest in anime can enjoy as well. It will take more work to produce, however I feel it is well worth the effort.

Other than that the development version of my website is running well and looking promising as a base. I am still deciding whether to hold off on the website launch for the release of a new show, or to just do it now to test server deployment. Boring? I know, however I am an internet citizen, and as such, I naturally realize that everyone need to know these things. I am not one to take my duties to the world as a whole lightly. As such here is a post and cuteness ;)

Studio and Projects Steaming Ahead

I am quit busy so I will keep things brief, next anime review will be of higher quality because I am dedicated more time to rehearsal and delivery. The CHEWS website is under active development after a long hiatus, it is coming along very well, I am learning new skills and new content will be coming. 

Beyond all this I quieting video games for the year to steal back more time, this should help insure quality targets are met sooner than they would have otherwise been.  Most the time it is easier than I expected to not play games, though random video game cravings do happen anytime I here an epic sound track play, such as the doom one.  Until then here is an amazing picture of a very profession cat.

Don't Let Life "Just Happen"

"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways." James 1 5-8 (ESV) 

Have you ever looked at where you are in life verses where you want to be, and given yourself the excuse that life just happens? Better yet, have your parents or loved ones ever said, “Stuff happens and plans change?” If you have, I can almost bet that, to some degree, you have found yourself feeling like a wave in the ocean that is tossed whichever direction the wind blows. This state of being poses a threat to how we live our lives. What sets man apart from the rest of nature, is the God given gift of wisdom. In other words, it is our ability to understand how and why things happen and apply that to how we live.

It is this gift that gives us authority over our own lives. To no longer blame others, or chance, but rather take responsibility empowers us to create, build, and change our environments, rather than just simply adapt and survive. The problem for many is that, to do this, we are forced to seek out truth, a pursuit that can impose momentary discomfort and require action. Furthermore, we must have faith that truth exists, and thus certainty that God (not an ever changing and random being), and His creations, is a knowable and learnable entity. While we might not have the time to know everything about all things, we can still reasonably discover what is true, and what is not. This can all be summed up in one easy statement, “Knowledge is possible.”

I have come to acknowledge that my life is my responsibility, regardless of the excuses I accepted in the past. While obstacles, these excuses were not reasons, as my choices produced the outcomes. As I continuously grow comfortable with this fact, I am managing to get on track and start improving my results. I do so because I have faith and certainty needed to seek the Truth. This endeavor was only made possible when I chose to reject the failed idea that truth is subjective. This does not mean I do not question things, as questions are necessary for independent thought. What I am certain of is that the answer can be found and that the false can be proven false.

A Serious Look at What it Means to be an Adult

Many of us, myself included, have hurts. Many of us where not given an amazing deck, or situation. The world may have been cruel to us in many ways. I may seem to be set about crushing us, and as children we where powerless, a slave to the situation. As such we changed the only thing we could, our thoughts. We Set up illusions, defenses, or made excuses for ourselves and others,  We devalue our feelings, programmed ourselves to believe our emotions to be independent of the reality in which we existed. Even at times, Guilting ourselves for having them despite our supposed good fortunes, 

So the question is, when do we quite being children? When do we say to ourselves, "The life I was given may not be great, but it is my life and I will shape it into something that is."? When do we quite being powerless slaves, whose lives are dictated by an impossible situation? Adulthood starts when we decide to clear out the garbage and build something new. When life becomes an incomplete project that we take pride in building. People are always telling you and me that xyz is wrong with the world and that x or y is the reason.

 I won't do this. I won't tell you what is wrong with the world. I won't because I have no place trying to make what I want your problem. I will share what I want in life with those who value it and cut out those who do not. The world is a place, your life is a time, and what becomes of it is your responsibility. More than that it is your blessing should you choose to cherish it. 

As creatures made in the image of God, a creator, we have inherited the power that few being have ever had, the power to create. An Adult is someone who owns his or her own life, one who sees the garbage field they where handed as project not a final conclusion. Someone who does everything he can to identify the pain, problems and challenges in order to form a plan of action. I have seen few adults in my life, however I have chosen to be one of them and so far I have never felt, better, more free, or more alive than I do now. Apprehension is met with joy, and pride, this is the life God gave me and the tools he gave me to build with. I can't wait to share what I make of it. 

ChAnime Episode 2 released

Well now that it is finished I feel it was better than my first review with a few exception. Mostly I am happy with my improvements, I worked hard and will continue to work on, and improve my skills, editing and overall quality. More fluid speech and looking at the camera more frequently are my current short term goals. Beyond that not much more to say so enjoy !

It Is All Rigged!!! and Anime Review 2 May Be on Time?

Strange, possibly catchy (maybe not) headline, check! I updated my editing rig it now has 32gb of ram for better editing support, Though boy was that a process. Some oddities with my memory controller made it more work than expected to get the second 16gb functioning but at last I did.

On top of that, the  second episode of ChAnime (our faith based anime review show) has been in editing and is looking to be a noticeable step up in quality from the first. I am doing my best to put particular care with the editing in order to pull it together for a Friday night/ Saturday morning release.

For the first time it looks like I will actually make my own time table, a miracle unto itself. Heck it might even be enough for the atheist in my life to reconsider the existence of God! Well maybe not but still, believe me, it is quite the improvement.

Believe in Me

It was often an overwhelming cry of my heart, an unending desire and perhaps more than that.
It was a belief that I could do anything, but... however... WHATEVER!
Un-ending tormented screams,
"Believe in me, please someone anyone."
"Someone don't let go,
someone, anyone!"

I just need someone to stand by my side.
Someone that will be there when I fail,
someone with the right to celebrate when I succeed
I was crippled by waiting
held back, not by others, but rather by my belief that I could do nothing while I waited.
By a belief that made me a product of circumstance.

I lived in this state till the fire in me said, "Enough! I can, and I will."
It is not easy, nor impossible
It takes time, but never too much!
I will not sit by waiting for someone.
Rather, I will be

no, I am, the one for whom someone is waiting.
I am a warrior, a creator, an innovator!
I am proud, I am me, I am man.

Short Update Video

Work System Fixed!!!!

Fixed my work partition, turns out someone else had my problem related to a specific non standard package I am using, the fix was posted right in the comments :D. Now I can get back to work.

Updated Set New Shows and Dead(ish) Partition

I updated my set, was not able to get depth of field effect on my cam with the limited space, however I did just barely manage to rearrange the space I have. After 8 hours of cleaning and rearranging stuff that wasn't even mine, I was able to get my green screen out. This should, if I can light the screen evenly enough, allow me to put in custom backgrounds and blur them at will. You will be seeing this used for now on in episodes of ChAnime and various other content I am working on. Heck I may even use it in future rants I want to go on, for those who care about my political and philosophical thoughts on things.

Really things are coming along great. I have made serious progress towards my goals, and am securing deals that will allow me to pad out the content with at least 2 additional shows. That said, I have had a minor set back, my partition used for work is temporarily not booting, though I really should have it back in no time and none of the data was damaged. Not much else going on in my life, other than i managed to take some well earned rest to play a few games :D.

Task-list Addiction?

Haallllp I am definitely addicted to my task list. Anytime I try to spend extended time on leisure, it feels painfully wasted, it almost feels like the time I had a panic attack, but different. I mean, for one, it isn't crippling. Second, I can't say I don't enjoy it, I am really enjoying getting the work done that I am, the desire to get stuff done keeps waking me up early. In fact, it is often after only 4 hours of sleep!!!

This experience is new, scary and incredibly fun. So far my only regret is that I had never discovered this sooner. I wish I would have let loose and started working toward all those, impracticable, impossible, or unrealistic things I was always told was not as important as satisfying the requirements of arbitrary teachers. "Focus on the back up!",always seem to be the message and you know what, screw that message it sucks. I have no back up. It is either solve the problems to get where I want to be or die never having reached it.  It feels foreign as if I am just now meeting myself for the first time.

I am going back and forth between a number of videos I am working on, that will be staggered out in release.  For example, I have finished all the pre-writing for a video promoting the C.H.E.W.S. vision, and I have started the writing on my next anime review, which is looking like it should be better than the first. Despite working on a number of long and short term projects, I can already see how I plan to tie them together. The fact i am getting even just a little closer is absolutely wonderful. I have too many ideas I want to share, and too many changes I want to see to slow down and I would not change a thing!  

Personal update: Anime Review 2 and Let's plays

Now that I have received feedback through various websites on my first episode of ChAnime, I am in the process of selecting which anime to review for the next episode, and so the process begins! The wait for this episode will be much shorter than the previous one, that was bogged down by a move and general chaos.

Beyond that I am planning a separate lets play channel for which I have acquired a partner who's personality I think a lot of you will enjoy.  He will be payed for his time, and is someone I know very well. All that is left is to figure out price and time, something I will not, for obvious reasons, share here. Life is going well and projects are coming along fantastically, and I am excited to bring you all along for the ride of building a world class company.

Personal Update: ChAnime and My Race for Progress

I released the first episode of a new faith based anime review show titled ChAnime. This was a fun learning experiences, one in which I faced a lot of frustrations. The process of trying to put it together into something I felt was presentable got infuriating at times. I even went over things so many times I started to think I hated everything about it.

After making an outline that I finally felt worked, I made some references slides, spoke to them, revised them repeatedly, and finally found what works for me. The outline was helpful, yet barely resembled the final output.  I missed a number of deadlines, worked a week straight, and now I am addicted. This was incredibly fun and hope to put this much effort into everything I do.

I am not yet happy with my ability to deliver the level of quality I wish to reach, be it in my speech delivery to an imaginary audience, or the final video output. Regardless I am happy both for the new work ethic, and the progress this video represents.  Chanime S01-E01

Beyond all this I am in Texas learning new skills and perusing new opportunities. Most important I am in a friendly race with my cousin toward progress. The first check point will be to beat him to a million dollars a year, not for materialistic reasons, but rather as way to support myself to implement the changes that I wish to see in the world. (Note that his goal is $100,000 to start and I hope to be first to that as well.)

I am not saying the money is not nice, or that I won't enjoy it. Just that it is not the goal in and of itself. When it comes to a choice between morals and short term profits, my morals will always win. I am still working on my book, it is coming along fantastically by the way, and I have actually thrown out the vast majority of the first draft in order to rewrite it. This is not to say the first copy was not valuable, because it was. From it I learned what was working and what was not. I love life and am finally moving forward, so if you want to support this consider watching and sharing my anime review ChAnime S01-E01